So, tonight I said to Steinar, “Let’s not have visitors
tonight so we can get our website updated and a letter out to our supporters.”
Well, that being said, five minutes later two young men showed up at the door, “ Can we
visit?" (One of which has lived here for 9 months and this is only his 3rd
time to visit!! ) Ah..I torment inside as I say, “I’m sorry, but we’re not
having visitors tonight. Will you please come tomorrow?” A few minutes later, a
phone call, “Can I come by for a few minutes?”Again, minutes later another
phone call, “Our hot water tank isn’t working, can I come use your shower?”
A “few minutes” visit, and one showering body later I sit
down to write to you all…and now in this very moment…I hear the drumming and singing of the Nuu-Cha-Nulth
Tribal Council Men’s Gathering across the path at the Dining Hall. My heart
races and tears swell in my eyes. I want to go listen! I want to soak in the
Spirit of their songs to the Creator. I too want to visit with those young men, and the one coming to shower.
(Oh, ‘smile’, a little 2 year old visitor is sneaking in the
front door to visit our sleeping Annabelle and Benjamin, just now.)
This is a glimpse of our life in Esperanza; the ins and
outs, the comings and goings of the community in our household. We can make
plans, but we want to be flexible. We can set boundaries, but sometimes just
gotta give. Being torn between wanting to do more things with your day than there are hours to do so.
We are so grateful to live in Guest House and are really feeling the love.
